Fucking pissed the fuck offffffff

Hate this rematch process, I don't hate very often, BUT if I do, I really hate, A LOT........
okay I don't hate it,,, I dislike it, it makes me real sad :(

Serious, the family in Novato that I was gonna start working for must have some deciding problems, cause from one day to another she left a vocie mail saying that she had some second thoughts. And now she's like terrorizing my phone with all of this other voice mails that she wants me to come anyways.

Well,,, I'm out, it's to stressful and I don't want to move in to a family where everything is so complicated and unsure before I even started workin for em...

I'm sad and hurt because I keep hearing all this bullshit about me that reaches out to the new families about my looks like I have piercings and tattoos, that I have a boyfriend?????? stop wait a minute, since when did I have a boyfriend if you don't mind me asking? If you find him tell him to call me........

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So fucking annoyed and mad and sad. I can't stand this BS anymore and I don't even wanna hear a single word more about me\, what I've done, how and look etc behind my back, If somebody has a problem, tell it to my face\, gosh plz.

Since they went out my au pair account I had a match from Michigan which is gone now today and another family from Novato but now it's empty. I have until Friday to find a family otherwise, HELLO Sweden..

I just want to be here, meet people, travel, get some life experience and have fun before my VISA runs out this October.. I know I'm a good au pair, I love kids and I put all my effort to the kids when I'm working, There must be a family that wants me to come.. 


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On the bright side though....
no fuck it today there's no bright side......