Hello my old friend,

I know I didn't write for a while. I've been busy, mostly living. Work is going good, got my first paycheck earlier this week which makes it feel more worth going there at all. Spent a lot of time with my family too that's kinda the only thing I have energy for when I'm off work late.

This weekend was pretty cool, went out to a pub, Sober for once with a friend from work and watched a live band. Worked yesterday (Saturday) then I just watched two movies and went to bed. This morning I got up and went to church, then home and made some lunchboxes for this coming week.

Took a trip to my moms after that and she had some books for me about rawfood which is my latest thing, it's feels like a blessing to have found this diet. It doesn't include any kind of meet at all it's a total vegan diet and it's based on vegetables whit a lot of protein and fruit. I'm doing a slow start just to get used to eat vegan, I've been vegetarian for almost a year now but been eating seafood time to time.

Me and my mom when grocery shopping and then I bought this awesome mixer so I can make super-smoothies in the morning that I can drink on my way to work, since I suck at eating breakfast it's such a pain to just feel sick every morning.

This week it's work from Monday-Sunday then off three days and I'm really looking forward to that. Might go to Göteborg with my family if I'm not finding some cheap flight tickets to go visit Martina and Denise in Germany.

God is good
Life is good

Time to sleep so I can wake up full of energy and ready for a new week

xoxo
Hanni

California, take me back?


Sweden, especially at summer time (jun-august) is fantastic, I enjoy it when It's sunny and no rain. But honestly nothing beats cali. I miss it so much.. I miss my friends, the beach, palm trees, the ocean, pubs, people, santa monica, pier 39, my bff that I love to the moon and back, all the kids I took care off, I miss the states in general Virginia with all its charm. I just wanna go back, that's all I want. I don't care that It feels like mission impossible, I'm going to keep praying and hoping that I get an answer..

Work is going fine, starting to learn more and more how to deal with it without asking for help all the time which off course is good. Soon my first paycheck comes in like to weeks, God knows how long I've been broke.. A good two months soon.. I just want to be independent again, sure I have my own apartment and all that but I can't really do anything fun without having some $$$

Other than that I'm working on my tan, spending a lot of quality time with the family, drinking too much beer as usual and daydreaming about leaving Sweden as soon as possible. I don't know why I just can't be happy here and enjoy it. But I just feel like something is missing, the feeling that I didn't have for almost two years when I was away travellng.


Well, enough being down,
At least I have some awesome plans, visit my friend in Norway ASAP and when Denise and Martina (my german friends that I met in the states) moves back to their homecountry I'll take the first flight there for a long weekend, miss them so much..

This weekend where having a great big graduation party at my moms house, my sister is done with her university program and my little sister is finishing highschool tomorrow. So congratz!! Family from all over Sweden is visiting to celebrate so I'm kinda excited.

Time to sleep,
up up and away tomorrow morning
Off work, yeey
get to sleep in


XoXo
gossip-hanni

Monday
Ready, set, go!!

This week is gonna be amazing
why
CUZ I SAID SO :)

Happy Monday ppl

Aaaaand I had a great weekend!
so It's all goood

peace out

And then came Monday. I actually had an awesome day, work was so easy. At lunch we were sitting outside eating which made the day even better.

This weekend was pretty good as well. I went out with a youth group from church after work on Friday. We had a bbq and it was cool, will probably hang out with them again another Friday. Saturday I spent with my mom, we where laying in the sun almost the whole day and I got a really nice than.. just a little sunburned in the face lol, typically me to forget the sunscreen as usual. Well anyways we had a chillaxing day and we ended up going to a nice pub with tables outside close to the water and I got myself a nice cold beer and my mom had some wine.

Spend the whole Sunday funday with my mom too, it was Mothers Day so had to celebrate her. In the evening a cooked a nice dinner for the whole family. Had a blast, love them all.

After work today I went on some spare energy I didn't knew I had and clean the apartment, made lunchboxes for the week, had a shower and gave the flowers some water. Had a great afternoon!

Time to close this laptop now,

peace '
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Wuz good my bloggish??


Just got home from work, had a really good day. I woke up with a positive feeling today, I love good days!!! When I got home a made a cup of tomato soup and called my friend Sarah on skype, she's my best friend also an Au pair. This Sunday she moved to Atlanta from Connecticut so I had to see what was up with her.

The week has been going pretty fast, it was just monday and soon it's friday yeey. This weekend I have some goals.. I'm going to try to be sober for the first weekend for a couple of yrs.. Ooopssiii. Well, I'm sure it's gonna be alright I anyways don't have any money so it's all good.

Last weekend was crazy, after work last friday I went to have a bbq with my fam it was cool. Had some nice grilled hallomi and veggies. Then we had some drink and we invited the neighbour to party with us. It was a new pub/bar opening here last wknd called Harrys, so I went there later on and it was awesome. Was dancing until sweat was drippin all night.

Saturday I went with my big sis beckie and her bf to Örebro to get som shopping done. I kinda spend my last money on some cute summer tops which was more than unnecessary... Well at least my wardrobe is happy!

 Work is going super, I had a couple of test on the computer systems that we have to learn and I almost score 100 % on all of them, proud Hanni. I'm surprised of how much that fits in my brain, this intro weeks has really been taking all my energy to focus.

I have no plans for today more than relaxing as usual after work and I'll prolly had a nice long shower right about, nooow!!

Peace bros n hoes

I woke up this morning hearing the voice of an angel. I miss my baby in California so much... Thank God for Skype.


I had my first day at my new job yesterday. Long day started at 8 am was pretty hard falling asleep the night before so was terribly tired. We weren't done until 4.30 pm and this is how 4 weeks of introduction will be everyday. Must say it was interesting though, a lot to learn for this telephone company but I bet I'll figure it out!

I felt kinda down after hanging up my phone this morning, it's a horrible feeling to be so far away from people that I love.. It's like two different worlds, I had my friends over there and they also where like my family.. I appreciate everything that I have here and off course I love my family but it's hard anyways..

I could never dream of having my own apartment and a new full time job after just 4 weeks back in Sweden, but I did it and that's amazing. I really tried my best to get my life back so this is all good. I applied for so many schools so I'm just waiting for the answer of where I'm getting accepted and then I'll make my decision if I really do wanna study starting this fall. I didn't really make up my mind about it yet.

I know God has a plan for me, my biggest goal right now is to not worry about everything. I'm laying sleepless every single night having panic attacks about the future, the present and the past...It's not a pleasant feeling I tell you that much..

I'm off work today since it's a holiday but tomorrow I'll go to work and then I have the whole weekend to enjoy. I'm thinking about going back to my hometown Mora, I got to borrow my moms car and I know my little sister and brother wanna go there anyway. Also I actually got invited to a party with a old friend from school on Friday so I might go there just to relax and have some fun..

Since I'm off today I'm going to take a long walk now or run depends on how I feel when I go outside and then tonight I'll probably go over to my moms house for a family dinner, my big sister and her fiance have some shrimp with them from Norway, I looove seafood.

Alrighty then, guess It's time to get going.

Peace

 

A day In Berkeley with my friend

 

Met some guys from Boston!!

 

St Patricks day at a Irish Pub!!

 

Vacation in Miami with Lucky, Martina and Denise

 

South beach

 

Road trip San Francisco-Los Angeles and back

 

 

 

Miami,

Martina, Hanna, Denise

 

 

Lucky, Hanna, Martin from Holland!!!

 

Miami South Beach

 

 

Last goodbye in L.A Santa Monica

Martina, Hanna, Denise

 

 

EGO CAM SHOOOOTS!!!

 

Feel ike it's time to upload this blog again. I'm actually back in Sweden. For about 3 weeks ago my time as an au pair in the states ended. I was in remtach, then I moved to a new host-family in Novato, California with 5 kids but from there it all went downhill. It was a horrible match and I was very unhappy there. I stayed bout 2 weeks in the family. Before I flew home I went on a vacation to Miami South Beach with Martina, Denise from Germany they live in L.A and with Lucky a friend of mine. It was a blast, oh my gosh If I could explain in words how much I absolute love Miami I would. We stayed at the International Party Hostel and I assure you that we Did party, A lot!!

I took a flight home in the middle of April, I didn't really have anywhere to stay any longer so I didn't have any options than going back. It was so aweosome to see my family again. Now I moved in to a new apartment it's very small but I love it. It has its charm in one way. My little sister moved in with me for a little while, but that's cool with me I don't like ti be alone anyways. I also got a new job at a place called Transcom, I will taking phone calls helping one of the biggest telephone companys in Sweden so I guess thats all good.

I miss the states, all my friends and places I went to. But I guess my time as an au pair was over. I do have a lot of plans for travelling in the future though. Imma travel the the whole world that's my mission. I'm going to Octover fest in Germany to visit tons of friends, Might go to Dublin in August with Denise and Martina and we also have plans to work and travel in Austrlia, studying in Scottland next year and my latest idea is actullay to go to Africa and work as an au pair helping with the world peace.

YES!

Now, Imma rock this little city Kristinehamns butttt.
Cya ppl
much love and hugs
xoxo

Yours truly, Montani