Hey bloggen what's up dudes. I'm living the dream In Hollywood and tomorrow is New Year's Eve. It's awesome it's so cool. Not ? Yes ? No ?

I'm bored....... My family just came to the states a couple of days ago the flew all the way from Sweden how amazing is that ?

And I've had vacation since the 19th an this is the second time in LA. I went down here a couple of days to meet Martina an Denise last weekend. It was so much fun. Now I'm at a road trip from San Francisco tee slept one night in templeton and now we've been in Hollywood 3 nights and today were moving to marina del Rey to celebrate to new year.

Now we're gonna take a last walk at Hollywood blv and then where on the road again

Hope everybody had a amazing Christmas

Hasta la vista amigos

<3

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Jag vill vara ledig ledig lediiiiiggggggg


I bought bus tickets to visit Martina 20-23! Thursday til Sunday and then the day after my family comes !!!!!!! I'm so excited, I will have off between 20 dec- 2 jan and It feels great.

This week is soon over, work late tonight til 10 pm then just friday left. I'm off work this weekend but have no plans.

Was at a Au pair meeting yesterday but I simply just signed in and left, I didn't have the 15 dollar to go ice skating whit the others but whatever, I bought bus tickets instead hehehe.

I have to start working now, but

Peace and hugs

Was a while ago since I wrote but it's all good. I was off this weekend and that was great. I went to Sophie's house on Friday evening and spent the night there. She lives in portala valley which is on the other side of the bay. Took the Bart there and then she drove to pic me up at the station.

Her host family's house is soooo big like a mansion. We watched hunger games in the movie theater that they have in the house. Crazy bananas !!

Saturday she showed me Palo Alto and in the morning we went for a 2 hour long walk with a view over the whole Bay Area it was amazing.

Sunday I went to bible studies in the morning. Then I went to Starbucks and wrote all my Christmas card and then a afternoon church service in Oakland.

It feels like everything is going better in general right now. I bought bus tickets to visit Martina 20-23rd of dec just 9 days left !! Also my family is coming in less than 2 weeks its so awesome :)

One of the worst feelings I'm avoiding to have is to feel misplaced.. Every since I moved from Virginia this has been daily.. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I feel like I'm trying so hard to fit in here but it's not working out the way I hoped. I'm trying to hangout with people but that didn't really go as planned either..

This week I spend mostly hiding under my covers cause I'm scared for what's next and that is so not like me.. I don't recognize myself anymore.

Tonight I really tried. I went with my host family to a Christmas party with 200 others at the neighbors house, I ended with my standing on the lawn having a 2 hour long panic-attack of being surrounded by people that showed nada interest talking to me what so ever. Sure maybe I could have done more but I didn't really fit it,
I felt truly misplaced around all the kids and parents.

Well this was not meant to be a complaint. It was just for myself to relief some off my thoughts that keep bugging me. I guess I've been hiding my bad thoughts even for myself for too long. I'm sad and tired..

The show must go on
Seriously, I've come to a point in my life where I just need to stop, reflect and change some things.

My new goals
Read more books
read the bible this time on Swedish
Drink tea (I never take time for drinking tea even though I love it)
Hang out with people that I feel comfortable with, people that I don't need to change for
Take a nice warm bath ones in a while, usually I just shower
Stay home and relax instead of going out all the time
Love myself
Build on my self respect and self confidence
Keep working out and eat healthy food
Safe money for travelling and vacation
Plan my next step in life, (right now my plan is to go back to Sweden In October, work and save Money then move to Australia)
Have no stress whatsoever everything will be alright
Love life
Get closer to God
Appreciate what I have
and finally...be thankful

Peace out amigos

LÖRDAGGGG
wihooo

alltså nu kände jag bara för att dra någon rad på Svenska. Tack och amen att jag vakna upp denna morgon haha. Igår körde man ju all in för andra gången denna helgen. Var sjukt kul, dansade på en pub i Berkeley och sedan blev det att stå ute i regnet innan jag lyckades ta mig hem vid 4 i morse hehe.

Alight English, please.. What a day, I'm off this weekend and it feels lovely. It's raining outside but I don't even care right now. I'm just happy to feel free! Was out both Thursday evening and yesterday with Carole in Berkeley. Today I have no plans what so ever, but I'll figure something out. Trying to save my money for when my family from Sweden are visiting during Christmas and New Years.

I guess it's that time of year now, I have to start to write Christmas cards and buy presents. I love to buy gifts for other people, I just wish I had more money. But I've heard it's the thought behind it that's important!

Well no fun to sit here all day, ima try to get out and find some adventure!!

hasta la vista amigos