Hey bloggen what's up dudes. I'm living the dream In Hollywood and tomorrow is New Year's Eve. It's awesome it's so cool. Not ? Yes ? No ?

I'm bored....... My family just came to the states a couple of days ago the flew all the way from Sweden how amazing is that ?

And I've had vacation since the 19th an this is the second time in LA. I went down here a couple of days to meet Martina an Denise last weekend. It was so much fun. Now I'm at a road trip from San Francisco tee slept one night in templeton and now we've been in Hollywood 3 nights and today were moving to marina del Rey to celebrate to new year.

Now we're gonna take a last walk at Hollywood blv and then where on the road again

Hope everybody had a amazing Christmas

Hasta la vista amigos

<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IftJuingCw4

Jag vill vara ledig ledig lediiiiiggggggg


I bought bus tickets to visit Martina 20-23! Thursday til Sunday and then the day after my family comes !!!!!!! I'm so excited, I will have off between 20 dec- 2 jan and It feels great.

This week is soon over, work late tonight til 10 pm then just friday left. I'm off work this weekend but have no plans.

Was at a Au pair meeting yesterday but I simply just signed in and left, I didn't have the 15 dollar to go ice skating whit the others but whatever, I bought bus tickets instead hehehe.

I have to start working now, but

Peace and hugs

Was a while ago since I wrote but it's all good. I was off this weekend and that was great. I went to Sophie's house on Friday evening and spent the night there. She lives in portala valley which is on the other side of the bay. Took the Bart there and then she drove to pic me up at the station.

Her host family's house is soooo big like a mansion. We watched hunger games in the movie theater that they have in the house. Crazy bananas !!

Saturday she showed me Palo Alto and in the morning we went for a 2 hour long walk with a view over the whole Bay Area it was amazing.

Sunday I went to bible studies in the morning. Then I went to Starbucks and wrote all my Christmas card and then a afternoon church service in Oakland.

It feels like everything is going better in general right now. I bought bus tickets to visit Martina 20-23rd of dec just 9 days left !! Also my family is coming in less than 2 weeks its so awesome :)

One of the worst feelings I'm avoiding to have is to feel misplaced.. Every since I moved from Virginia this has been daily.. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I feel like I'm trying so hard to fit in here but it's not working out the way I hoped. I'm trying to hangout with people but that didn't really go as planned either..

This week I spend mostly hiding under my covers cause I'm scared for what's next and that is so not like me.. I don't recognize myself anymore.

Tonight I really tried. I went with my host family to a Christmas party with 200 others at the neighbors house, I ended with my standing on the lawn having a 2 hour long panic-attack of being surrounded by people that showed nada interest talking to me what so ever. Sure maybe I could have done more but I didn't really fit it,
I felt truly misplaced around all the kids and parents.

Well this was not meant to be a complaint. It was just for myself to relief some off my thoughts that keep bugging me. I guess I've been hiding my bad thoughts even for myself for too long. I'm sad and tired..

The show must go on
Seriously, I've come to a point in my life where I just need to stop, reflect and change some things.

My new goals
Read more books
read the bible this time on Swedish
Drink tea (I never take time for drinking tea even though I love it)
Hang out with people that I feel comfortable with, people that I don't need to change for
Take a nice warm bath ones in a while, usually I just shower
Stay home and relax instead of going out all the time
Love myself
Build on my self respect and self confidence
Keep working out and eat healthy food
Safe money for travelling and vacation
Plan my next step in life, (right now my plan is to go back to Sweden In October, work and save Money then move to Australia)
Have no stress whatsoever everything will be alright
Love life
Get closer to God
Appreciate what I have
and finally...be thankful

Peace out amigos

LÖRDAGGGG
wihooo

alltså nu kände jag bara för att dra någon rad på Svenska. Tack och amen att jag vakna upp denna morgon haha. Igår körde man ju all in för andra gången denna helgen. Var sjukt kul, dansade på en pub i Berkeley och sedan blev det att stå ute i regnet innan jag lyckades ta mig hem vid 4 i morse hehe.

Alight English, please.. What a day, I'm off this weekend and it feels lovely. It's raining outside but I don't even care right now. I'm just happy to feel free! Was out both Thursday evening and yesterday with Carole in Berkeley. Today I have no plans what so ever, but I'll figure something out. Trying to save my money for when my family from Sweden are visiting during Christmas and New Years.

I guess it's that time of year now, I have to start to write Christmas cards and buy presents. I love to buy gifts for other people, I just wish I had more money. But I've heard it's the thought behind it that's important!

Well no fun to sit here all day, ima try to get out and find some adventure!!

hasta la vista amigos

Sorry my beloved fans....
I haven't been writing much at all, been busy working, also went to L.A and Las Vegas over thanksgiving. Came home this Sunday, was one of the best vacations in my whole life. Met me two Swedish friends Sarah and Sofie. We had a blast and I spend all my money but that's what I was saving for.

Met up with the girls in San Francisco after work on Wednesday, They where suppose to sleep here two days but we did a plan-change for everyone's best. We took a overnight bus from 11 pm-7 am to Los Angeles. Then we had a full day of fun, saw the Hollywood sign, Beverly hills  walked around, saw the walk of fame, and we took a bus-trip to Santa Monica. We had so much fun, we lived in a Hostel in Hollywood. When we walked outside the door we where on the Walk of Fame, how cool is that?? The hostel had free.beer at the night so me and Sarah join the clan and got kinda shitfaced, played pool, danced and we actually meet a guy from Stockholm that also lived at the hostel.

Friday we took a bus at 7 pm-1 am to Las Vegas it was living up to my expectations  people being drunk at the streets, lights and high buildings everywhere, people gamble up all their money. Well I didn't since I'm smart (?) or maybe just a terrible gamer, lol. We lived at a cheap hostel downtown Vegas, I liked it it was a 10 ppl dorm room so we had other people mixed with both boys and girls sleeping in there. We did a Pub-crawl always wanted to try that, It was cool. We had super nice weather  shorts and just a top, loved it.

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Txted with my old host-mum from Virginia today, she said my room is still there and is very empty without me. No one can understand how much I miss them, they really excepted me with all their hearts. Will try to go back and visit them before I leave to Sweden again.

I don't have much time writing now I'm just writing since my grandma (L) emailed me pointing out that I didn't write since the 15th. She the sweetest ever, Love my grannie.

My family from Sweden are coming to the country between 24th dec- 7 jan. I'll take out a week vacation and celebrate Christmas and new years with them, I can't describe how happy I'm to meet them again, was more than a year ago since I left Sweden. We prolly go to L.A but they will fly here to San Francisco. I love my family, one more Christmas without them would be sad, so really hope all the plans that we have now will work out.

I can't sit here anymore, the gym is calling me. I'll try to update more, this is a great way to just write down stuff that I have in my head so I can move forward.


So hold on to what you believing- Mumford & Sons

Didn't feel like writing lately. But well here we gooooo


First off all, Life is good! Been hanging out a lot with Carole and Maja the Swedish girl. The whole last weekend from Thursday to Sunday we went partying in Berkeley. Had lots off fun, met people and we danced like crazy all night long. Meet Sophie from Virginia this weekend too, we had a coffee Saturday afternoon In Newark like a 40 min drive so kind off far. I was suppose to work on Saturday but they changed my schedule so worked Sunday after church instead. Was a great weekend, can't believe it but it's already Friday tomorrow.

Fixed a gym-card at YMCA in Berkeley now, feels so amazing. Went two times last week and two times this week already. I'm surprised off how much I'm able to do, I guess my expectations of myself where very low, haha. But I can already feel my muscles in my arms, legs and stomach getting stronger. I'm gonna make this faaaaat turn to muscles, YES I AM!!!! Go Hanna

Other than that, Sofie landed in NYC yesterday, she's currently staying at Sarah's house in Connecticut and on Monday they'll both fly here. And then LA and Las Vegas next Wednesday!!! I'm sooo excited, been waiting for this trip for weeks now, so ready.
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Went to the movies Sunday with my host-kids and saw Wreck-it Ralf, it was a good one, as usual I'm laughing louder then all the kids together but well that's me... Also went to see Flight at the movies on Tuesday evening, makes me feel like I never want to fly again.... Not to recommend for people like me that are slightly scared to fly!!

Yesterday it was a Au pair meeting at a coffee shop in Mont Clair, omg it was sooo b to the oring... Me and Maja came in with kinda big expectations to meet some new au pairs, a little late since she insisted going to IKEA before to buy some cheese.... But wooow it was not so much going on there, the LCC barley said hi so I took a bathroom brake and then we took off, at least we signed in.

Later on yesterday I went to play pool at a nice bar in Berkeley with Carole a guy she was meeting and two off his friends. One from Italy on from Dubai and then we also meet two girls at the place that we were sitting at the same table at in the end. Had so much fun, love to hear about other countries and cultures, so interesting. My pool skills are not to much to brag about... I usually played when I was wasted in Sweden and then I was awesome as far as I remember, lol, well, I did my best, had a great time though!

Colored my hair yesterday while I was skyping with my little sister Sara. She and my older sister Rebecka are trying to go here over Christmas and New Years but we'll see about that. The plans are a little messed up right now.. I can take out a week vacation there If I want to but I don't know how I can pay any bookings now since I need my money for this trip I'm about to do right now..

Anyways, I was scared about the whole hair situation I tell you that... I didn't color my hair for months just done some highlights to make it go a little bit more blond. Yesterday I wanted it all to get blonder but when I had the color in everything was orange, I was terrified that my hard work would go to waste (Drama-queen Hanna is writing), luckily it looks fine, not orange! I can't say it's a big difference at all but whatever, I tried.

Now I have to go and take a shower just came from the gym, met uo with Carole after and had a coffee. Tonight I'm working til 10 pm but might go out after not sure yet. No plans for the weekend more than go dance, off from work to that's great!

Hasta la vista amigos!!!


Pics from Atlantic City,
One of the best weekend trips in my whole life
Miss my girls... Aishling, Martina and Denise

View from our Hotel-room

Ash, Hanna

Martina, Hanna

BOOOOOOOREEEEDDDDD

MOHUHUUHAHAHAHAHAHA

Finally Friday, wihooo!

This week went over pretty fast after all. The weather was crazy though, super-hot pool-weather on Monday and yesterday night came a hailstorm. I thought it was snow first, lol. Went out yesterday evening to Pappys and danced all night with Carole. Was fun, love to go out on Thursdays and just start the weekend early.

Just got off work, its only 5.30 pm so feels good. Gonna take a shower in a minute then get ready to meet up with Maja my Swedish friend and Carole. Going out tonight as well! Work tomorrow morning a little bit and after I might drive to meet Sophie from Virginia. And other than that I didn't plan, will try to get to church in Sunday and then maybe go in to San Francisco.

My trip to L.A and Las Vegas is coming up, time is flying as usual. I'm extra happy and looking so much forward to it because Denise and Martina my two German best-friends, who both lives in L.A now will go with us to Las Vegas. They booked a hostel too and we found out it's like 1 min from each other so it's gonna get craaaazy.

So happy the weekend is here, can explain how good it feels.
Cheers
peace out

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pics from 4th of July celebration in Washington D.C this summer

Hanna, Denise, Martina

Hanna, Malcolm, Denise, Martina, Steve, Sophie

Monday?
wooow this weekend was over way to fast
but now its just a whole week until it's weekend again, wihoooo
Got my schedule yesterday, work a little bit this Saturday but other than that I look forward to the weekend already. I'm so excited that Sarah and Sofie from Sweden is coming soon, I'm just counting the days down now, 19th of November they'll land at Oakland Airport!

I'll try to go to the gym tonight with Carole. I applied to get the gym fee at YMCA cheaper and today I got mail back and I can go there for like 40 dollars per month. It's very cheap usually its at least 100 dollars. Only thing is that it's a little bit of a drive which means gas-money. But I've searched for other places to go with not any luck whatsoever so I'm actually really considering to do this. I have to give my bankcard info withing 15 days so have a little bit of time to think about it.  I mean it's worth to spend some money to stay healthy it's just that I know that I really have to go there at least 2-3 times a week if it's going to worth it.

Well didn't sleep much at all this weekend to much party and fun and yesterday I was home later than planned at like 4 in the morning. Soooooo about to take a nap until I start working again. Hot nice and sunny out today, just went to the post office, 30 plus Celsius outside today, unbelievable  maybe swim with the kids in the pool this afternoon.

Cheers amigos
peace out

Good weekend!

Kids had off school both Thursday and Friday, we had play-dates, baked cookies, went to a museum and they even took a swim in the pool. Friday evening I went out with Carole to a Reggae-bar/club it was amazing. The music was so good and we danced the whole night, really small place but cool. Saturday I went to the doctor, took the half day but at least I got a prescription on medicine for what I needed. After I went to Emeryville with Carol, had a great time.

Went out yesterday evening as well in Berkeley. Was fun we did some different places cause the music wasn't so good, went back to the reggae place and danced. Yesterday night we turn the clocks back one hour so could sleep a little extra this morning. Was still tired when I went up to go to church which actually was great today. Got a lot of good words that I needed to hear!

Ate lunch with Carole after church at a Mexican restaurant and after I said goodbye to her and went  downtown San Francisco with the Bart to meet up with Sophie my friend from Virginia  Also meet her tree friends that also comes from Germany. They wanted to go shopping so was fun. Lots off good places to go spending all your money in SF.

Sunday evening, don't have much plans, might go watch a movie soon at the theater with a friend.. Happy that I was off this weekend and had a lot to do. Was kinda bored last week, everything seemed to be turning against me but for this week I have a lot more of positive energy!

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Wednesday
Happy Halloween my friends!
Dropped two Harry Potters at school this morning, super cute. One of my host-kids have golden blond hair but we sprayed it black and I took my eyeliner and made scars in the foreheads. When we came to school all the other kids also had dressed up so fun to see, good morning!

Right now I'm searching for schools and gyms online. I went on Monday to a gym called YMCA with Carole. I don't know if it's the best one for me though since it's a little bit to long of a drive. Well we'll see.. Didn't really find anything that looks better yet. I want to start to work out again so bad, it gives me such a good feeling in my body. And with school I didn't find anything interesting so far.. I need to do my 6 credits that Cultural Care wants me to do. It's so hard to understand how much it cost, how many credits and how to register I feel very confused. Hope I'll find something.

This week is slowly moving forward. I went to bed at like 9 pm yesterday I was just exhausted even if I had a little nap on the day after my walk. Today's weather is not so fun so I don't even feel like walking. Since it's Halloween I'll be home tonight and give out candy to all kids why the rest of the family will be out trick or treating! We'll have some friends for school over as well and have a little pizza-party. I'm very excited! We also carved pumpkins the other night so much fun! Kiddos have off from school tomorrow and friday so have to figure out what we can do.
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things to think about
What do you mean If I can? Jesus asked,
Anything is possible if a person believes.

Don't give up, don't stop believing and trust!

Do you want to know who you are?
Don't ask, act!
Actions speaks louder than words.

peace out amigos
yeaah maybe I should take Spanish classes, will look it up right now!!!
see u later alligator

Monday-funday

Martina was here this weekend since Thursday evening. We had such a good time, missed her so much, she left Virginia just one week before me. Now I just have to save up some money, buy a flight ticket and go visit her in Santa Monica. My host-family absolutely loved her so that was great, I mean how can you not.

We smoked some hookah, went one night to Berkeley for party and the whole Saturday we spent in San Francisco. We took a guided bus-tour for like 20 dollars, totally worth the money. It was amazing we saw the city and the last stop was Golden Gate Bridge, It was so cool. I always wanted to see the bridge up-close. Sunday morning we went to church which was really good! The service was very interesting  and Carole was also with us. Unfortunately I had to drive Martina to the bart-station yesterday afternoon so she could fly back to L.A.. But we had a brapheonmanazing time!

Sarah and Sofie from Sweden will come visit me here in San Francisco soon, time is flying. The 19th November!! Can't wait, we're going to L.A and Las Vegas, how cooool is that? Always wanted to go there, It feels so unreal, like a dream that it's soon time to go there. I'm so happy for all the places I've seen just this last year when I lived in Virginia and what I'm about to see. I really never thought my life would be like this if you asked me a couple of years ago.

Halloween is coming up soon, my host-kids are so ready. The twins are both going to be Harry Potter and then have been Potter everyday after school for like a month. This weekend my oldest host-kid was baking pumpkin muffins, delicious! And every morning they ask me if it's not Halloween today, so cute. But on Wednesday they will go trick or treat and I'll stay home giving out candy to kids, that'll be fun. Also two days this week they have off from school both Thursday and Friday so I'll try to plan something fun, maybe a trip to the Zoo or go to the movies or whatever!

I don't have much plans for this week, I know I want to start to go to a gym, YMCA whit Carole. She already has a membership there and a guest-pass so I think we'll go tonight after work and do some exercising. Something I missed, I had a great place back in VA. Other than that I know there's a Halloween party in Berkeley Wednesday night that my Frenchies wanna go to. And they want to dress up so we'll see about that. Could be fun.

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Notes from Church..

What does it mean to grow up in God? I want to know Christ, showing up with Jesus in daily life, participate with Jesus suffering assume the best of God in your worst. Get to know Jesus better, have a relationship with Jesus that's how you start to know God. Everything compared to Jesus is garbage. How can you be more like Jesus, what would Jesus do.

This world is broken but Jesus is making it new through us. Slow up, show up and grow up. You got to slow down and stop, take a breath, show up before God. Everything you have or lost is through God.

Request to be God, ended whit death. Don't try to be God, there's only one God, he's a jealous God.

Ask your self, what is the proper speed limit, then ask your self how fast you're going. Slow down, we are speeding up..

Love and respect are models, when you raise kids teach them this and then live like you learn.
How can I bless people/ friends around me. What acts can make someone else happy, show love. It's not what you get it's what you can give.

The family of God, true King of the whole world. Together we fight the spiritual war against the evil. We are bothers and sisters. 

from the book of Philippians.
For who is greater, the one who is at the table or the one who serves? Is it not the one at the table? But I am among you as one who serves. You are those who have stood by me in my trials. And I confer on you a kingdom, just as my Father conferred one on me, so that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom and sit on thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. 

Things to think about..

Don't focus on things that you don't have. Think about the blessings that God has given you. Our prayers can simply be only requests but take a moment and think thorough the ways you are blessed and thank God for them.

Keep your face always towards the sunshine and the shadows will fall behind you. Keep the negative thinking away, don't give it more negative energy. Put all your effort to see what is good, be positive. See something good in everyday.