Wuzzup bloggish

Tgif!!!
To bad I'm working this weekend.  This Sunday was supposed to be awesome I've been planning for ages to go to las Vegas for my 21 st birthday but since I left the states this April is more a dream than a actual plan.  I used to be a bus trip away from Vegas. .

Well enough crying rivers.  Life is good.  I'm broke and hella bored at work.  I got paid like yesterday but i had two rents to pay this month since I'm moving to växjö soon.  Money is like melted butter in my hands. .

It's only Friday once a week
Be happy and enjoy

Over and out
Peace and rainbows
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Everything is changing right now :) feels awesome that I'll start a new adventure soon.  Actually in like one month.

Today I quit my job and it's mixed feelings since it's good to have a job and to have money to depend on.  I'll miss some of my work buddies as well.  But I really do think that my latest idea of what I'm supposed to do right now is even better!

I'll move to a new city in the end of August.  (växjö) because I got in to this university! !! Yey me! I'm going to study three years at the culture leader program.

I decided this Friday to do this so I sent some emails and I got an apartment super quick.  I'm going to share it with some other people but in the beginning I don't care to much. If I want to I can get my own apartment there later on.

So this is the latest news from Hanni Montani
Peace and rainbows to errbody

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Tuesday morning and I'm up and awake!
 Thank God for a new day in life,

I love it when I start working at like 11 am, cause my mornings are just so wonderful. I can sleep in, wake up and have a nice shower and now since I bought a new awesome mixer, I can make a breakfast fruit-smoothie to drink on my way to work, yay me!!! If I would have to wake up before 8 am that's me being a zombie more dead than alive to be honest..


Since I'm feeling great right now I just wanna wish everybody a terrefic Tuesday!
Enjoy amigos

xoxo



Pic from US! :)

Hello my old friend,

I know I didn't write for a while. I've been busy, mostly living. Work is going good, got my first paycheck earlier this week which makes it feel more worth going there at all. Spent a lot of time with my family too that's kinda the only thing I have energy for when I'm off work late.

This weekend was pretty cool, went out to a pub, Sober for once with a friend from work and watched a live band. Worked yesterday (Saturday) then I just watched two movies and went to bed. This morning I got up and went to church, then home and made some lunchboxes for this coming week.

Took a trip to my moms after that and she had some books for me about rawfood which is my latest thing, it's feels like a blessing to have found this diet. It doesn't include any kind of meet at all it's a total vegan diet and it's based on vegetables whit a lot of protein and fruit. I'm doing a slow start just to get used to eat vegan, I've been vegetarian for almost a year now but been eating seafood time to time.

Me and my mom when grocery shopping and then I bought this awesome mixer so I can make super-smoothies in the morning that I can drink on my way to work, since I suck at eating breakfast it's such a pain to just feel sick every morning.

This week it's work from Monday-Sunday then off three days and I'm really looking forward to that. Might go to Göteborg with my family if I'm not finding some cheap flight tickets to go visit Martina and Denise in Germany.

God is good
Life is good

Time to sleep so I can wake up full of energy and ready for a new week

xoxo
Hanni

California, take me back?


Sweden, especially at summer time (jun-august) is fantastic, I enjoy it when It's sunny and no rain. But honestly nothing beats cali. I miss it so much.. I miss my friends, the beach, palm trees, the ocean, pubs, people, santa monica, pier 39, my bff that I love to the moon and back, all the kids I took care off, I miss the states in general Virginia with all its charm. I just wanna go back, that's all I want. I don't care that It feels like mission impossible, I'm going to keep praying and hoping that I get an answer..

Work is going fine, starting to learn more and more how to deal with it without asking for help all the time which off course is good. Soon my first paycheck comes in like to weeks, God knows how long I've been broke.. A good two months soon.. I just want to be independent again, sure I have my own apartment and all that but I can't really do anything fun without having some $$$

Other than that I'm working on my tan, spending a lot of quality time with the family, drinking too much beer as usual and daydreaming about leaving Sweden as soon as possible. I don't know why I just can't be happy here and enjoy it. But I just feel like something is missing, the feeling that I didn't have for almost two years when I was away travellng.


Well, enough being down,
At least I have some awesome plans, visit my friend in Norway ASAP and when Denise and Martina (my german friends that I met in the states) moves back to their homecountry I'll take the first flight there for a long weekend, miss them so much..

This weekend where having a great big graduation party at my moms house, my sister is done with her university program and my little sister is finishing highschool tomorrow. So congratz!! Family from all over Sweden is visiting to celebrate so I'm kinda excited.

Time to sleep,
up up and away tomorrow morning
Off work, yeey
get to sleep in


XoXo
gossip-hanni

Monday
Ready, set, go!!

This week is gonna be amazing
why
CUZ I SAID SO :)

Happy Monday ppl

Aaaaand I had a great weekend!
so It's all goood

peace out

And then came Monday. I actually had an awesome day, work was so easy. At lunch we were sitting outside eating which made the day even better.

This weekend was pretty good as well. I went out with a youth group from church after work on Friday. We had a bbq and it was cool, will probably hang out with them again another Friday. Saturday I spent with my mom, we where laying in the sun almost the whole day and I got a really nice than.. just a little sunburned in the face lol, typically me to forget the sunscreen as usual. Well anyways we had a chillaxing day and we ended up going to a nice pub with tables outside close to the water and I got myself a nice cold beer and my mom had some wine.

Spend the whole Sunday funday with my mom too, it was Mothers Day so had to celebrate her. In the evening a cooked a nice dinner for the whole family. Had a blast, love them all.

After work today I went on some spare energy I didn't knew I had and clean the apartment, made lunchboxes for the week, had a shower and gave the flowers some water. Had a great afternoon!

Time to close this laptop now,

peace '
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Wuz good my bloggish??


Just got home from work, had a really good day. I woke up with a positive feeling today, I love good days!!! When I got home a made a cup of tomato soup and called my friend Sarah on skype, she's my best friend also an Au pair. This Sunday she moved to Atlanta from Connecticut so I had to see what was up with her.

The week has been going pretty fast, it was just monday and soon it's friday yeey. This weekend I have some goals.. I'm going to try to be sober for the first weekend for a couple of yrs.. Ooopssiii. Well, I'm sure it's gonna be alright I anyways don't have any money so it's all good.

Last weekend was crazy, after work last friday I went to have a bbq with my fam it was cool. Had some nice grilled hallomi and veggies. Then we had some drink and we invited the neighbour to party with us. It was a new pub/bar opening here last wknd called Harrys, so I went there later on and it was awesome. Was dancing until sweat was drippin all night.

Saturday I went with my big sis beckie and her bf to Örebro to get som shopping done. I kinda spend my last money on some cute summer tops which was more than unnecessary... Well at least my wardrobe is happy!

 Work is going super, I had a couple of test on the computer systems that we have to learn and I almost score 100 % on all of them, proud Hanni. I'm surprised of how much that fits in my brain, this intro weeks has really been taking all my energy to focus.

I have no plans for today more than relaxing as usual after work and I'll prolly had a nice long shower right about, nooow!!

Peace bros n hoes

I woke up this morning hearing the voice of an angel. I miss my baby in California so much... Thank God for Skype.


I had my first day at my new job yesterday. Long day started at 8 am was pretty hard falling asleep the night before so was terribly tired. We weren't done until 4.30 pm and this is how 4 weeks of introduction will be everyday. Must say it was interesting though, a lot to learn for this telephone company but I bet I'll figure it out!

I felt kinda down after hanging up my phone this morning, it's a horrible feeling to be so far away from people that I love.. It's like two different worlds, I had my friends over there and they also where like my family.. I appreciate everything that I have here and off course I love my family but it's hard anyways..

I could never dream of having my own apartment and a new full time job after just 4 weeks back in Sweden, but I did it and that's amazing. I really tried my best to get my life back so this is all good. I applied for so many schools so I'm just waiting for the answer of where I'm getting accepted and then I'll make my decision if I really do wanna study starting this fall. I didn't really make up my mind about it yet.

I know God has a plan for me, my biggest goal right now is to not worry about everything. I'm laying sleepless every single night having panic attacks about the future, the present and the past...It's not a pleasant feeling I tell you that much..

I'm off work today since it's a holiday but tomorrow I'll go to work and then I have the whole weekend to enjoy. I'm thinking about going back to my hometown Mora, I got to borrow my moms car and I know my little sister and brother wanna go there anyway. Also I actually got invited to a party with a old friend from school on Friday so I might go there just to relax and have some fun..

Since I'm off today I'm going to take a long walk now or run depends on how I feel when I go outside and then tonight I'll probably go over to my moms house for a family dinner, my big sister and her fiance have some shrimp with them from Norway, I looove seafood.

Alrighty then, guess It's time to get going.

Peace

 

A day In Berkeley with my friend

 

Met some guys from Boston!!

 

St Patricks day at a Irish Pub!!

 

Vacation in Miami with Lucky, Martina and Denise

 

South beach

 

Road trip San Francisco-Los Angeles and back

 

 

 

Miami,

Martina, Hanna, Denise

 

 

Lucky, Hanna, Martin from Holland!!!

 

Miami South Beach

 

 

Last goodbye in L.A Santa Monica

Martina, Hanna, Denise

 

 

EGO CAM SHOOOOTS!!!

 

Feel ike it's time to upload this blog again. I'm actually back in Sweden. For about 3 weeks ago my time as an au pair in the states ended. I was in remtach, then I moved to a new host-family in Novato, California with 5 kids but from there it all went downhill. It was a horrible match and I was very unhappy there. I stayed bout 2 weeks in the family. Before I flew home I went on a vacation to Miami South Beach with Martina, Denise from Germany they live in L.A and with Lucky a friend of mine. It was a blast, oh my gosh If I could explain in words how much I absolute love Miami I would. We stayed at the International Party Hostel and I assure you that we Did party, A lot!!

I took a flight home in the middle of April, I didn't really have anywhere to stay any longer so I didn't have any options than going back. It was so aweosome to see my family again. Now I moved in to a new apartment it's very small but I love it. It has its charm in one way. My little sister moved in with me for a little while, but that's cool with me I don't like ti be alone anyways. I also got a new job at a place called Transcom, I will taking phone calls helping one of the biggest telephone companys in Sweden so I guess thats all good.

I miss the states, all my friends and places I went to. But I guess my time as an au pair was over. I do have a lot of plans for travelling in the future though. Imma travel the the whole world that's my mission. I'm going to Octover fest in Germany to visit tons of friends, Might go to Dublin in August with Denise and Martina and we also have plans to work and travel in Austrlia, studying in Scottland next year and my latest idea is actullay to go to Africa and work as an au pair helping with the world peace.

YES!

Now, Imma rock this little city Kristinehamns butttt.
Cya ppl
much love and hugs
xoxo

Yours truly, Montani

Fucking pissed the fuck offffffff

Hate this rematch process, I don't hate very often, BUT if I do, I really hate, A LOT........
okay I don't hate it,,, I dislike it, it makes me real sad :(

Serious, the family in Novato that I was gonna start working for must have some deciding problems, cause from one day to another she left a vocie mail saying that she had some second thoughts. And now she's like terrorizing my phone with all of this other voice mails that she wants me to come anyways.

Well,,, I'm out, it's to stressful and I don't want to move in to a family where everything is so complicated and unsure before I even started workin for em...

I'm sad and hurt because I keep hearing all this bullshit about me that reaches out to the new families about my looks like I have piercings and tattoos, that I have a boyfriend?????? stop wait a minute, since when did I have a boyfriend if you don't mind me asking? If you find him tell him to call me........

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So fucking annoyed and mad and sad. I can't stand this BS anymore and I don't even wanna hear a single word more about me\, what I've done, how and look etc behind my back, If somebody has a problem, tell it to my face\, gosh plz.

Since they went out my au pair account I had a match from Michigan which is gone now today and another family from Novato but now it's empty. I have until Friday to find a family otherwise, HELLO Sweden..

I just want to be here, meet people, travel, get some life experience and have fun before my VISA runs out this October.. I know I'm a good au pair, I love kids and I put all my effort to the kids when I'm working, There must be a family that wants me to come.. 


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On the bright side though....
no fuck it today there's no bright side......

So today I went to Novato California to meet my future host family. When I was on my way I didn't know what to expect or what was gonna happen. I was driving the car there and the only thing I had on my mind was like. For real.. I love cali I'm so not done leaving already .

I found their house like a 40 min drive from here. The house lovely, in the backyard they have a basketball court, swimming pool, playground and a tennis court that's all theirs. So crazy I couldn't believe my eyes. Met three of the five kids that in going to take care of all of them so nice.

I talked for a while with the host mom and the kids and we decided to agree that in from now on gonna be their au pair. Im so happy and super excited.

She wants me Monday already so we'll see what's up. Gotta talk to this family first. don't wanna leave them hanging and no fights. I almost packed all my stuff ready to go fo sho...

A lot of bullshit drama goin on right now so actually pretty happy this is all coming to an end I can handle it no more...

Life is good, I finally have a reason to blog again now everything is all good like it should be

Well serious it's like 4.20 in the morning just got home from a awesome day/evening.


My pillows screaming for some love

Alone at the house with two of the kids. My host mom is in NYC and my hostdad is unfortunately at the emergency with one of the kids. They're staying over night so ill stay here and help out. We thought he had the stomach flu since Saturday but he just didn't get any better. This morning I was so worried I asked my host dad to just take him in. He has a kidney infection poor little kid! Hope they can help him now so he'll get good again.

I've got a match with a family living 30 min from here in a place called Novato. Will probably meet the family tomorrow or this weekend to see if I maybe can be there au pair. It's 5 kids so a big family. Wish me luck

Rematch

Been feeling unwelcome and unhappy in this family since day one. Last week my host family said that its better if I find a new family to work for. It's official the papers r signed I'm out of here.

Have until the 15th to figure out what my next move is. Sweden? Back to Virginia ? Find a family In California ? Right now I ddont have a clue.

Have a vacation boon to Miami 1-6 April with some good friends wish that I still could go.

Hard to be in this situation feel sad divided and confused to be honest. Trying to keep smiling though

I had the best valentines day ever. First I got surprised in the morning with a red rose homemade brownies and the most delicious salad you can imagine with avocado and goat-cheese. Had a really nice lunch in the sun and after we went to lake Merritt and we brought things so we could draw picture was so much fun.


Work a little in the afternoon got a heart shaped box of chocolate from my host family and then. In the evening We went to a place in Berkeley which is amazing it has the view over the whole Bay Area.

The whole day was just amazing. Didn't expect anyone to do that for me but really appreciated it! Hope everyone had a great valentines day!

<3

Tuesday ! Week started of good not to much at work and was kicking it with a friend last night!

This weekend was just so amazing the greatest weather ever I almost got sunburned already. Went out to a chill spot in Berkeley evening after work. Had a really nice time.

Went to ocean beach on Saturday morning with Marie from France Selma from Bosnia and Maria and Jennifer from Columbia. We had such a nice day always a little bit colder and windy at the beach but we had brought picknick so it was awesome anyways. After that we decided to hit up the city for a minute and it was cool since it was Chinese New Years !

Was hangout out with another friend on Saturday evening and we went to spend time with some good friends of his. Was a fun evening always cool to meet new people.

Had to work a little Sunday from noon til. Three but took the kids out in the sun so it was all good. Afterwards I met up with Sophie in Newark and we where just taking and chillaxing, always nice to meet up with her!

Well coming up next booking vacation Miami beach 1-7 April
And oh yeah valentines day Thursday ;) haha

It's to bad I don't blog more often. But I really feel like writing here right now so that's what I'm gonna do!

I think January has been a amazing month, the weather was warm and sunny. Had lots of pick-nicks  had a great time with my host kids and just been hanging out a lot with good people. Also doing great with working out and food so right now my life is so awesome.

I was off work this weekend so me and Sophie decided kinda spontaneous to visit Sacramento which also is the capital city in California. We had a blast, first of all our bus tickets where ridiculously cheap, 6,50 bucks back and forth and it's only a 2 h bus ride. We went on Saturday morning and when we arrived we went to two museums and then we check out old town and downtown and after we had breakfast-lunch-dinner at panda express, yummy.

We didn't really have a strict plan about what we wanted to do but we had so much fun and in the evening we ended up at a Irish pub. Sophie found something before we went about couch surfing. Basically people let you sleep in the house for free, you can make a profile online and that's how you get in contact with people. So we decided to try it, and it worked great, a couple responded to us and they said it was cool we come one night. They picked us up downtown at the evening and we hang out with them the rest of the night. First we went to a desert bar and that's exactly what is sounds like. They ate some cake and I just tried everyone's haha.

After we sat in their apartment playing video-games all night. That's usually not what I like to do at all but I was so in to this burnout racing game. Their friend that also stayed there over the night was living in Oakland so we didn't even have to get the bus home we drove with him. All together a fun experience in Sacramento, will probably not plan on going back too soon, feels like It was a onetime thing to see.

I was home about 2 pm on Sunday and a friend of mine came and picked me up to go to the Super Bowl party. San Francisco 49ers was playing  against ravens and it was a even game. Was so much people there I didn't expect that at all. They evening had a BBQ and campfire and beer-games back in their garden. If you stood there you had the view all over San Francisco's skyline and the baybridge and golden gate, pretty cool!!! The party went on to late night so was sooo tired yesterday when I had to be up early to work. But that was a once in a blue-moon Sunday celebration.

Today I had lunch with a new pastor from the church which a met a couple of times before since I've been going to this meeting at another pastors house two Wednesdays  He's a great guy, we had a good talk today when we had lunch. Feels great to be more connected to church. And Tomorrow evening I'll finally start bible studies with a group of ladies from church. Bought my books for a while ago and been doing a chapter all ready. I'm so excited.

I guess It's time to sleep now, very tired, even though it's surprising me.. Went to bed before 9 pm yesterday cause I was so worn out after this busy weekend. But guess the workout I had today before I started working effected a little.

Miss everybody back in Sweden a lot.. but must say, now more than ever I'm really tried to figure out how to stay in the country after my visa expires.. It's running too often through my mind that this will come to and end, too soon :(




xoxo

me and my mom when they came for vacation during christmas

little sis 

familyyyy

L.A