Don't feel like writing at all
that's why I'm gonna write something
just because
I don't feel like it


very negggggo right now, dunno why. Was the same yesterday evening. Good thing to have friends to call sometimes when you feel lonely and sad.

So that's why I'm gonna do a write about everything that was good today. Cuz I know it'll help.

The work in the morning was good, I read the San Francisco newspaper and I had a nice glass of cold water. Took care off some laundry, gave twins a bath and then I walked kids to school. The walk was very good, as every other morning. When I came home I talked with my host-dad about the earthquake that took place today, very small one but still, a earthquake, the first one in my whole life, scary bananas.

I took a trip today to a place called Alameda, it's a little beach there so I walked down there after I bought I coffee. I had my leather-jacket and a sweatshirt on, but still. To windy and cold so couldn't stay long. I enjoyed it anyway, it was not a long ride there, about 20 min. Will probably go back, a sunny day!

The work in the afternoon was also okay, took them to soccer practice and after I went with the whole family to a restaurant and had dinner. The city did a very cool thing this evening in the park, they had like a movie-screen so lots off people went there tonight and saw the movie The Lorax, I got invited to go with the family so I went. Was fun, a was surprised about the amount off people, also saw the french au pairs and did some plans for tomorrow evening.

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Been down here since after the movie skyping with Sarah, trying to figure out our trip. Sofie and Sarah will come here in the end off November. We'll go to LA and Las Vegas. Right now we¨re trying to book hostels and find out if we should go by bus or flight.

Martina looked up today to maybe come a weekend in October so will ask the family if they're okay with that. Would be so nice, miss my Tini so much.

I'll go up tomorrow and get ready for meeting Sophie my friend from Virginia, in downtown San Francisco tomorrow. Looking forward to meet her again a lot. We don't have any direct plans about what we're doing but we'll figure it out. Probably Carole will come in later on in the evening to hang out with us!

Off both Saturday and Sunday so really excited about this weekend, will try a new church on Sunday also. Hope Ill find what I'm searching for!

Mormor:
Vi måste prata snart, gått allt för länge sen nu. Saknar dig! Det funkar bra här, vart depp i två kvällar men det ska nog ordna upp sig nu. Är ovan med att vara så mycket med mig själv och inte springa ut varje kväll efter jobbet. I morgon ska jag in till downtown och träffa Sophie en tjej jag känner ifrån Virignia.

Var ut och åt med familjen ikväll på en restaurang. Väldigt god mat måste jag säga, åt räkor och pasta mums. Sen såg vi en film i en park tillsammans med i princip hela staden. Jätte coolt med utomhus bio!

Håller på att bokar för fullt med Sarah och Sofie inför när de kommer i November. Tror det kommer bli topppen. Nu ska jag sova så jag orkar upp tidigt i morgon!

Now I feel a lot better,
thank you Hanna for being so awesome
over and out



I take pictures all the time,
so I just keep on posting them here,
cuz
I can and
I want to,
just so u know
if ur wondering
why

kass bild

men det är en princip grej

hörs då

Twins had early day, so started workin extra early, at 7am. After I walked them to school I was studying for my California Driver's License, it's actually the 3rd one. Will try to do some more tomorrow and then go back to DMV and do the test. 40 questions here, which I think is a lot, but I'll make it work. Other than that I'm thankful that I can skip the driving test!

It seems like the visiting from Sweden is going as planned, asked my host-family today if both Sofie and Sarah could come and that was fine. So I guess we'll book plan tickets to LA and Las Vegas this weekend! I can't believe it, so amazing. Always wanted to go to these places, exciteeeeed.
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Something hit me the other day, yes I'm on deep water right now. But this is my blog so I can write whatever I want, sooo. I was walking home and suddenly I heard my self thinking about the whole situation about being a Au pair, kids, other people kids and then, there it was, BOOM...

Getting my own kids??

It was the sunniest day ever but I got goose bumps, I just froze for a moment. Not because anything is wrong with it, not because I don't believe I could or would. I just haven't spend a lot off time thinking about me having my own kids, for real. Now it feels way to early, but one day, I know I will, probably have a bunch and live happily ever after.

Well enough bout me and kids. Or actually not I wanna tell about the rest off my day, since it was awesome. I went to get the kids from school in the afternoon, we had fun today, played in the park, at the playground and then we all skipped home. Back at the house we did a lot off Halloween projects, we cut out some ghost and pumpkin paper chains and colored them. Felt very creative today!

Then my oldest kid where taping me while I was cooking, he is working on the Hanni Montani cookbook website. He's so funny, very engaged to the whole thing. It's really starting to look cool, I saw some off his work today. He did put out videos, and recipes already. Check it out haha
https://sites.google.com/site/cookingwithhannimontani/







Mormor
Allt flyter på precis som det ska här på andra sidan jorden. Hade en riktigt bra jobbdag, har pysslat med barnen, lekt i skogen och på lekparken. Värdföräldrarna hade en date-night så jag jobbade extra sent idag. Gick däremot väldigt bra, tvillingarna går och lägger sig rätt tidigt så var väldigt lugnt på slutet.

Pluggade även inför mitt Kalifornia körkort. Blir med 3:e kort nu, ska försöka läsa på lite till och sen kan jag ta testet som är 40 frågor. Rätt mycket men hoppas det ska gå bra.


Detta är en hemsida som min äldsta värdunge har jobbat på, han har filmat mig när jag lagar mat, ser faktiskt riktigt kul ut.

https://sites.google.com/site/cookingwithhannimontani/

Today I felt total silence, around me and even in my brain(very rare that I'm not thinking anything at all) for the first time In my life. It was like the time stood still and then after a while everything went back to normal again. It was amazing and short.
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Was to tired yesterday to write, had a good day but really exhausting. Didn't have to work until 2.30pm so was off in the morning. Love to sleep in, not a morning person at all. I can lay a whole day in my bed, if I don't put 6 alarms on I never wake up and I can sleep more then 16 hours without waking up.

I went on a long walk yesterday around Lake Meritt, took like 1,5 h all together with the walk from the house included. So much people running, walking around there was kinda interesting just looking at people. Had my music plugged in so enjoyed myself a lot. When I came home a did a superyummy salad, nice lunchy crunchy.

In the evening I went to Carole to watch a movie, nice to come out a little bit after work. Was so cool to drive to her cause she lives at a really high point so they view was great. I wish a had a awesome camera then I would have taken some pics to show. Also the road was turning and had a lot off curves so it was good training. I'm planning on being the best driver in world, soooo... I better since I'm gonna buy so many cars later on when I'm rich!!!!

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Today I was up early in the morning, after I walked the twins through the park to school I walked home and took a shower. I decided to enjoy the day outside since the weather today was just beautiful. I ended up sitting outside Starbucks with a coffee and my book for hours.

Then back to work, where swimming in the pool at the new house until we went home to cook dinner. I made some Hanni Special Stir Fry for myself, it was so delicious. A lot off veggies, some rice and cracked in two eggs. I love cooking it so much fun. My oldest host kid thought my enthusiasm for cooking was so fun so he started to create a web page for me haha, Cook with Hanni Montani, he's so funny.

Talked a lot with my best friend Sarah lately. She lives in Connecticut now and she really wanna come visit me here. She and another friend Sofie might come in the end off November to visit. In that case we will stay here a couple off days then fly to LA and Las Vegas and maybe see Gran Canyon. I'm super excited. Didn't see Sarah ages, me and me and Sofie haven't seen each other in way to long time, we used to be best friends.

Martina lives in Santa Moncia now which is not to far and she wanna come visit me over the weekend soon, maybe even this weekend. That would be so brawesome, miss my souile so much!!! So proud off u, know we'll meet soon!

I also have to write a couple off sentences about how happy and proud I'm about my little sister Sara. She's is so awesome and positive now days, I used to read her blog and that was kinda depressing sometimes ;) but now she's like a new person. Now there's a lot off hope in everything that she writes! Everything happens for a reason and nothing is impossible that's what I've been saying to her, even when ur down at the bottom off a deep black hole u can always rise up and grow as a person.
Love u Sara!
http://saraaandersson.blogg.se/

blablablalbla...

I saw love for a while back ago, it was so strong that u could almost touch the feeling. It was on the BART (metro, subway, whatever) in to San Francisco. There was a couple, standing on opposite sides off each other, then I saw how there eyes met and they where both smiling, not with there lips but with there eyes. It was so beautiful, I could feel how they felt in some weird way, I just wanted to share that with u all, even if it sounds a little bit crazy bananas.

Mormor

Hejsan hoppsan! Har haft en underbar vacker dag. Satt på Starbucks idag och läste och drack en kopp kaffe. Igår var jag på tok för trött för att blogga, kom hem från en filmkväll hos en kompis rätt sent. Var ute på en långpromenad runt en sjö igår, riktigt härligt!

Sarah Gruddan och Sofie från Mora ska kanske komma och hälsa på mig i slutet av november, kommer bli fantatiskt kul, ser fram emot det jätte mycket. Vi försöker planera ihop allt nu så vi kan boka i helgen!! Min vän Martina ska kanske komma och hälsa på någon helg snart hon bor ju inte så långt ifrån mig, runt 5 timmar.

Jobbet gick bra idag, simmade i poolen vid nya huset efter skolan och sen gick vi hem och åt middag. Upp tidigt i morgon så ska se en film nu och sen ska jag sova. Vi hörs :)

skillad man är på att bygga lego, ahahha

www.bliuttråkadpå5min.se

Lake Meritt

Hannis cookbook

in progress, by hostkiddo 

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Wanna show y'all the nature here
Voila!

orange treeeee 

OMG

never seen that before

morgonstund har guld i mun

-Mamma och Sara lär ju skratta nu

awesome day

söt

happy hanni

cookin, yeeees

så smäll götttt

From this weekend!!

bortglömd
som en kaffekopp av porslin,
den har gömts längst in i finskåpet
och nu,
bara samlar damm
bortglömd
som den nya leksaken,
som inte längre var intressant
men detta inte att förglömma
den är ihågkommen
för,
kärleken är så färgfull och stark
att den inte går att gömma

du är saknad min vän

This is a day to remember, it was such an amazing day all together. Got up according to me really early  at 7am, got ready for church, met my french friend, Carole before and we went together. Was a interesting morning service, I liked it a lot, missed last Sunday so felt really good today. Will keep searching for the right church, this was good but think there's something else waiting for me. Wanna feel home, like I did at the church in Woodbridge.

After we picked up four other girls and we started out road trip to Venice beach, took around an hour to drive there.  First we had some pick-nick and after there was a beach party going on there so we checked that out. We continued our trip and went to another place we had coffee, went for some shopping then finally we went to the beach that was there before we drove home again. In the evening I went with Carole for some exercising, we did some power-walking, felt great afterwards.

I enjoy the nature here so much, it's supercooool. I can't even explain how it feels to stand and look out over the pacific ocean and just feel, I don't know, Life I think! It's a special feeling makes me feel alive. I've been out so much lately and it really clears my mind every time, love it!

Talked with the girls about skydiving and hiking so lots off plans going on. So thankful to meet so wonderful people here. Life is good, God Is Good, Hanni is Happy! I'm amazed about how good I'm feeling, I miss so much people right now, It hurts sometimes when I think about it, I cry a little bit too, but It's okay. It's not bad tears, I just have a lot off good memorize, I don't regret going here and I'm just happy that I'm moving on, life will always change and that's nothing to be scared off.

Don't have to work tomorrow morning since I worked the whole day yesterday, planning on gettin up kinda early to take a long walk around a lake close by.

Mormor

Allting är helt enkelt super! Livet leker vill jag lova. Mår toppen och är underbart lycklig, haft en toppen dag. Var till kyrkan på morgonen, fick med mig en kompis också. Efteråt åkte vi till en strand som ligger ungefär en timmes bildfärd härifrån. Hade lite pick-nick på stranden och efter åkte vi till en stad och fikade lite, kollade i lite affärer och sen gick vi till stranden som var där också.

I morgon är jag ledig på förmiddagen, ska försöka motionera lite granna. Lär ju använda den lediga tiden till något vettigt hade jag tänkt. Är så glad över alla tjejer som jag träffat här, känner verkligen att detta kommer bli bra.

The pool in the backyard

bettaN

I see this beautiful sight everyday when I walk through the park

CPR-class this saturday

Bay bridge, road trip, San Francisco

beautiful

driven a long with the ocean

happy

Hanni, Carole

Pick-nick :D

beach partyyy

me and my two frenchies :D